I had it all figured out. I was golden ok plus ten years. But really I was heading into my 60th birthday looking and feeling younger. And everyone was backing me up, from my girlfriends to complete strangers. All were praising my beautiful looks and telling me they could not believe I was 60. I was feeling good. Not only did I look younger I had a strong, toned, sexy body from 5+ days of yoga and sculpt classes and I wear a size 4! I was proud of how I felt and looked. And here I was focusing on the outside for the most part.
And then came the pictures. Right before my 60th birthday, I started a trial for a new serum specially formulated for anti-aging and people who have had skin damage due to radiation. I have a fair amount of scaring, discoloration and redness on the side of my face from multiple surgeries and radiation therapy. To be a part of the trial I had to take pictures in artificial light with no makeup, very unflattering!
This process just made me focus on the outside even more but now my focus turned to what was wrong or unattractive about me! All the wrinkles, sagging skin, etc. I began to see all my flaws instead of the beauty inside. I had forgotten that our souls and beings are eternal and forever. True beauty is on the inside, it comes from how we love and feel about ourselves which is reflected on the outside. Love yourself and you will glow with a radiance that only feeling beautiful on the INSIDE can give you.
During this time of doubt, I remembered the poem from Marianne Williamson, “Our Deepest Fear.” Here it is to help empower you to see your beauty each and every moment……..
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”